Sunday, October 18, 2020

Excited about Chemo, Preaching and Pumpkins.

As the days draw closer to my next round I find myself almost excited?!?!  Is that just the weirdest thing? I know what to expect now when I go, I have the BEST support system and I know it means one more round down and one more day closer to being done with all of this.


Don’t get me wrong, I enjoy my week break in between, but I don’t feel anxious going in. I feel hope. Something I thought was going to be allusive this entire process. 
(PS: I reserve the right to change my mind about this at any point along the way!!)

Tomorrow brings a blood draw, appointment with my oncologist (okay that always makes me nervous- I like the PA better) and then another Pre-Chemo Movie Night with friends and family.
If Cinemark stops this before I’m done with chemo I’m going to have an issue!!! Oh and I get my hair cut!! You know, even if I mostly only go to doctors appointments you gotta keep the hairs lookin good.


Tonight I got to teach/preach for the first time since March. I had a lot of anxiety going into it because 1) it’s been so long 2) I haven’t really been around many people and was feeling social anxiety for the first time in my life 3) They are preteens #enoughsaid 

It was awesome. I had no anxiety about being around people (all were masked and did a great job distancing and we sanitized before and after) and as soon as I began speaking my nerves were calm. I loved seeing faces (eyes) of people I hadn’t seen since March and watching my oldest laugh and be around friends (he’s really really really struggling). 

I say teach/preach because with this age group and the content I was definitely able to approach it more like preaching which is something you don’t get to do with the younger kids as much. I came home tonight feeling like myself for the first time in months and months. Feeling that affirmation that I am doing what God has called me to do- which is to preach and teach the Word so others can find and follow Jesus. 
I cried with joy when I came home and told Trevor “I’m exhausted - but all my cup is so very full” 


Here are some pics from the last week and the “good days” 


Preteen Group 

https://drive.google.com/uc?export=view&id=1V2XD2kQOyfkv7moiJe9fYUwubPsM0VXy
How is he in 6th Grade?! 

https://drive.google.com/uc?export=view&id=10-r4VtCF62g-vs1jTCqENCVuDUONB__i
Carving Pumpkins followed by a fire and s’mores 

https://drive.google.com/uc?export=view&id=1Hd9DQVCJM3TjuLkD1NQWTNGj7mWtzeZz
Pumpkin Patch!

https://drive.google.com/uc?export=view&id=18Kbm6DrX7ZMfXX4d_u7IqWi73rgk_YOT
We like to go- get the pumpkins and leave. We aren’t really into the “festival” side of it- even before the CC Double Whammy...it just felt like too much! 

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