As the days draw closer to my next round I find myself almost excited?!?! Is that just the weirdest thing? I know what to expect now when I go, I have the BEST support system and I know it means one more round down and one more day closer to being done with all of this.
Don’t get me wrong, I enjoy my week break in between, but I don’t feel anxious going in. I feel hope. Something I thought was going to be allusive this entire process.
(PS: I reserve the right to change my mind about this at any point along the way!!)
Tomorrow brings a blood draw, appointment with my oncologist (okay that always makes me nervous- I like the PA better) and then another Pre-Chemo Movie Night with friends and family.
If Cinemark stops this before I’m done with chemo I’m going to have an issue!!! Oh and I get my hair cut!! You know, even if I mostly only go to doctors appointments you gotta keep the hairs lookin good.
Tonight I got to teach/preach for the first time since March. I had a lot of anxiety going into it because 1) it’s been so long 2) I haven’t really been around many people and was feeling social anxiety for the first time in my life 3) They are preteens #enoughsaid
It was awesome. I had no anxiety about being around people (all were masked and did a great job distancing and we sanitized before and after) and as soon as I began speaking my nerves were calm. I loved seeing faces (eyes) of people I hadn’t seen since March and watching my oldest laugh and be around friends (he’s really really really struggling).
I say teach/preach because with this age group and the content I was definitely able to approach it more like preaching which is something you don’t get to do with the younger kids as much. I came home tonight feeling like myself for the first time in months and months. Feeling that affirmation that I am doing what God has called me to do- which is to preach and teach the Word so others can find and follow Jesus.
I cried with joy when I came home and told Trevor “I’m exhausted - but all my cup is so very full”
Here are some pics from the last week and the “good days”
How is he in 6th Grade?!
Carving Pumpkins followed by a fire and s’mores
We like to go- get the pumpkins and leave. We aren’t really into the “festival” side of it- even before the CC Double Whammy...it just felt like too much!