Change. My word for the year.
How is that going? Well, we've changed our daily routine and are starting off most mornings earlier and in prayer together. While it's early and I am tired, the strength I get from that carries me long past a cup of coffee.
Speaking of coffee. We are going without...and then some for a few weeks. It is a part of our "7" and also a kick off to this new year and the change we pray it brings.
I miss my coffee and all the other things we aren't eating, but after 5 days I started feeling pretty awesome and while I look forward to having it back...it's not so bad.
I worked out 10 days in a row. I was set to finish the entire 30 Day Shred in 30 days until something popped in my ankle and now I am sidelined with what the doctor thinks is a tear.
Discouraged? Yes. Did I have a pity party? You bet I did. And then my friend walked me through it and gently reminded me that maybe He's trying to get my attention.
So focused on losing this weight, the thoughts consume me and while we've changed our daily routine, we've a focused prayer challenge and our diets have changed to focus on Him...I still held on to this. And I feel He's sort of said, let this go for now...focus on me.
So instead of fighting every tough day, and discouraging moment I am working to see them as teaching moments and letting God mold and shape me in them. Months ago I would have fought and grumbled through it all while saying I was trusting and praying....but in reality I was still struggling for control of it.
I don't want to waste these opportunities so I am letting him change me and my perspective.
So, my physical body isn't seeing the changes I anticipated 15 days into this month, but I know I am changing on the inside and that has to be enough for me.
I mean, did I ask Him to change me or not? Did I request Him to do whatever He would like, why yes I did....I have such freedom in that reality. Knowing that He has it under control and that my fretting will do nothing expect cause me to have to relearn this lesson again. Why fight it?
15 days into this first month of 2013 and already we've seen some major change....best hang on to my hat!
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