Kinda like when the twins arrived healthy via c-section at 36weeks 4 days and then 3 days later went to the NICU.
Or when my parents planned a Disneyland trip and it was to celebrate their 30th Wedding Anniversary and my Dad's retirement from the NWS and it was a bit different because she was in the middle of chemotherapy for breast cancer that took our family by surprise.
Sort of like picking back up running again, planning to run a race with youR Dad who had a triple bypass in March and then being told you have a stress fracture on your tibia and you are done running for a few months.
Yep. My nagging calf injury that I have dealt with since late winter on and off? The one I thought would go away....is a stress fracture. Not what I wanted to hear.
I was angry.
I cried, realizing that I would not be crossing the finish line in October with my Dad and sister. I feel sabotaged, knowing this has contributed to my 10.6lb weight loss in the last 3 weeks.
I can't believe it. I just started the new link-up on Saturday, Run Mama Run, and now I can't run.
I can walk. I can do weights. I can try running again, SLOWLY in about 2 months. And then I have to start slower than ever. Increasing run times slower than ever. Not easy for an impatient person like myself.
I had just been talking to Trevor about how I cannot pray or really even think while I run. So many people talk about how it's their "time" to pray and think about things while they run...I can't do it. Nothing goes on in my brain other than FINISH THIS RUN. Honestly, I've tried...it's like a block.
Yet, when I walk I can.....so I am taking this opportunity to walk on the days I would normally run, and using the time to pray and process what God is doing. If I don't treat my walks like part of my training, I won't do them. I have to look at it like a run, that's just how I work.
I will continue the link-up weekly, and be encouraging you all who are running! Run a bit extra for me, will ya?