Wednesday, September 19, 2012

When things don't quite go as planned

Sometimes, things just don't go as planned. We have it all figured out, and then a curve ball is thrown.

Kinda like when the twins arrived healthy via c-section at 36weeks 4 days and then 3 days later went to the NICU.

Or when my parents planned a Disneyland trip and it was to celebrate their 30th Wedding Anniversary and my Dad's retirement from the NWS and it was a bit different because she was in the middle of chemotherapy for breast cancer that took our family by surprise.

Sort of like picking back up running again, planning to run a race with youR Dad who had a triple bypass in March and then being told you have a stress fracture on your tibia and you are done running for a few months.


Yep. My nagging calf injury that I have dealt with since late winter on and off? The one I thought would go away....is a stress fracture. Not what I wanted to hear.

I was angry.

 I cried, realizing that I would not be crossing the finish line in October with my Dad and sister. I feel sabotaged, knowing this has contributed to my 10.6lb weight loss in the last 3 weeks.

I can't believe it. I just started the new link-up on Saturday, Run Mama Run, and now I can't run.

I can walk. I can do weights. I can try running again, SLOWLY in about 2 months. And then I have to start slower than ever. Increasing run times slower than ever. Not easy for an impatient person like myself.

I had just been talking to Trevor about how I cannot pray or really even think while I run. So many people talk about how it's their "time" to pray and think about things while they run...I can't do it. Nothing goes on in my brain other than FINISH THIS RUN. Honestly, I've tried...it's like a block.

Yet, when I walk I can.....so I am taking this opportunity to walk on the days I would normally run, and using the time to pray and process what God is doing. If I don't treat my walks like part of my training, I won't do them. I have to look at it like a run, that's just how I work.

I will continue the link-up weekly, and be encouraging you all who are running! Run a bit extra for me, will ya?



5 comments:

  1. Oh Krystle, I am sorry to hear that. I don't know anything about having a stress fracture but my running has been seriously sidelined by injury from car accidents, illness, having the boys, etc. You can still serve as a big inspiration for other mamas that are struggling to overcome life's obstacles and get back into running. Our Heavenly Father is teaching you so much about patience--his timing and not yours. I know that does not make it easy and I know it can be so discouraging. You will be in my prayers.

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  2. UGH! I totally understand. I was running all through the spring until I started having calf pain that hurt even when I wasn't running. It took more than 2 months to heal. I am just now starting to get back into it. I really need to run in order to lose weight. So I will run for you!

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  3. I'm sorry, friend! =(
    You're pushing through by maintaining a walking schedule while someone else would be crushed and just become a couch potato. So that definitely counts for something!
    Good for you! I hope you heal steadily each day, and as quick as you possibly can!
    Hugs!!

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  4. Sorry friend. Sometimes it helps to think of those curveballs as gentle nudges from God. When I think of it that way I can see the glint of promise in each challenge.

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  5. Oh no! It's like my tailbone injury that kept me from even trying to like running last year. You will get over this, and be stronger than ever!!!

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