Monday, February 28, 2011

Just a quick update...

We are totally pooped. I don't know what I'd do without Trevor here...he is amazing. He's making me rest, holding down the household stuff, brings them to me to feed, burps and changes and rocks them and puts them back to bed....I have a panic attack when thinking about him going back to work. Sigh....

So the boys were weighed today and YAY!

Camden is now 6lbs 3oz and Christian is 6lbs 1oz!! Camden has taken the lead and has put on over a pound in the last week or so! So proud of the little men! Will try to get some more pics up later this week!

Thanks again for all your prayers and keep em comin! :)

Friday, February 25, 2011

We're ALL Home!

Sorry for the delay in my posting...life is officially busy :) We brought Camden home this last week followed by Christian yesterday morning! The boys have been champ eaters and Camden now weighs 5lbs 10.4oz and Christian is at 5lbs 14oz! They also both grew about an inch in length!

I am still tandem nursing, although without my husband's help I'm not sure it would be happening. It might work for now, but I'm also thinking of trying some other things (one at a time, one with a bottle of breast milk etc) just to see what works for us.

We got them on a schedule at the hospital, and so far they are doing pretty well! Sometimes still confused as to when it's night and when it's day :) Camden is quite a spitty baby, but we don't think it's reflux...just a loose sphincter muscle from being a bit premature. They both have quite the distinguishable personality already.

Jack is doing better each day. He's definitely been acting out and doing things he has NEVER done before which makes me sad...but he isn't directing it at the boys so that's good. I know it will just take time. He's such a sensitive little man and I know we've rocked his world.

Today we woke up to snow! So Trev and Jack spent some time out there and then inside we painted a bird house! Trying to keep the fun up for Jack and keep his schedule regular.

Here are a bunch of pictures from the last several days. Thank you all so much for your prayers...they have been felt.
As we settle in to this new crazy, continue praying for rest, patience and wisdom. Thank you for loving on us!!
Jack holding Camden

Christian and Camden chillin'

Cuteness :)

"Say Cheese!"
He reminds me of Calvin in this picture (of Calvin and Hobbes)
Up to no good :)

Snow Play!

Saturday, February 19, 2011

Update on the Boys

The last few days have had many ups and downs. Great nurses, not so great nurses. Doctors agreeing with nurses, and not agreeing. Lactation consultants I want to bop on the head and fatigue.

The latest on the boys:

Camden is now at 5lbs 3.9oz! YAY! He had dropped to 4.14, so this is good news! His plan for the weekend is to get on all oral feeds, whether by breast or bottle with breast milk. They are fortifying my milk for a bit just to bump up his calories. He needs to steadily gain good weight over the weekend and if he does he could possibly come home Monday!

Christian is doing really well with his feeds and he is at 5lbs 6.9oz which is above his birth weight. We're not pushing him as much with his feeds because of his oxygen. So...we will slowly over the next week get him to all oral feeds as well. They are also weaning him off the flow of air. He started on 1 liter and today have moved him down to 1/2 a liter and he is doing well. If by Friday he is completely off oxygen/flow of air and he is taking all his feeds oral....he could be coming home some time that weekend!

SO, great news all around! It's exhausting....breastfeeding, supplementing with a bottle after they've breastfed to make sure they get enough (fortifying the breast milk in the bottle) and then pumping....and repeating every 3 hours. Whew. And it's not gonna get easier when they get home...:)
I'm still doing some tandem feeds, hoping to do that most of the weekend while I have help doing it.

Have any of you tandem fed? How the heck to you get all your pillows set up, latch them both on and then burp them by yourself? It's such an ordeal...and I'm using a shield for both babies at the moment. Any tips?!?! I know tandem is what is going to keep me sane, so I want to do that as much as possible.
The good news is I have a great milk supply and THAT was a HUGE prayer request of mine, so I am thankful for that!

So...that's about it. Thanks again for all of your comments, prayers and encouragement. I love going back and reading them over and over again :)

Here are a few pics from the last few days! Jack has been much happier at home and I'm so thankful.

Auntie with Christian


Jack testing out the babies things :)

Mommy and Jack time :)

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

Today Stunk

Just going to be honest here...today was not good. It actually started out great. When I got to the NICU I found that Jack's nurse...the one who watched over him for that week and taught me how to breastfeed and take care of my little man, was back after 3 months off from a broken foot and she was OUR nurse!!
I almost cried.

This nurse just got back from an international convention of neonatologists, doctors, nurses etc in South Africa. She was there to present her work and research on a feeding plan she developed that our NICU uses and her research on late pre-term babies AKA babies born between 36-37 weeks AKA our babies. Seriously...how perfect is that?!

So I was super excited and she was very aggressive in wanting them to breastfeed more and tandem. I was stoked! She wanted me in for every feeding and tandem each time. She also started weaning Christian off his airflow. So, we did it and she helped me and the boys actually did quite well. We've found that Camden sucks in his bottom lip and so his tongue slips up and he ends up not latching well, which has contributed to his not eating as much even though it looks that way...thus weight loss.
We also are using a shield now with Christian just to help him not work too hard.

So I went back for the night feeding only to find out that the pediatrician and lactation consultant disagreed with our nurses plan. The lactation consultant (who had observed a feed while my Mom was also there) said I looked overwhelmed, uncomfortable and didn't see how I'd be able to do it. She thought Camden ate poorly and Christian was sleepy and that his oxygen dropped all the time. NONE of this was true. In fact Christian barely dropped and it was only for a second, he sucked the ENTIRE time and Camden did sooo much better! I was so angry that this lady had passed on false information.
The pediatrician is wanting to follow a strict schedule instead of allowing the boys to dictate when they should feed.
So instead of nursing them, the fed them through their NG tube and I went home. Now I am only doing every other feeding in the daytime, which is a maximum of 3. The others will be NG and through the night I have asked that they get a bottle with my milk when they show signs of being hungry. I know my boys. They like to suck...they need that. Feeding them only through an NG is NOT going to help them learn how to suck and eat.
Our nurse is off the next two days so we decided to take this break and basically appease the doctor and lactation consultant...then hopefully when she is back on Saturday (yes she did request us) then we can get back to business.

Camden lost weight again and I am praying so hard that at tonight's weigh-in, he is better.

I feel discouraged. I feel defeated. I feel like this is endless and that Camden will be in much longer than anticipated and Christian will be in longer than 10 days. I feel scared that when they do come home they won't have been ready and because I don't have monitors beeping everywhere I will worry constantly.

I feel exhausted. Going down for every feed left me with an hour and a half at home in between feeds. I had to rest during that time and eat in the car. This left me with no time for Trev or Jack who isn't too happy with Mommy right now and it breaks my heart.
So...this 2 day break I think will be good in that regard.

I'm tired of crying. I know things could be so much worse...but this is my situation, this is where I'm at and it just hurts.

They are so beautiful and I want to just eat them up. Gonna leave you (after this venting post) with some pictures from today. Jack was allowed to "hold them" he didn't do so well....but it will get better I'm sure.
Thanks for letting me whine.

My dad with his newest grandsons

He's pretty happy :)


Jack asked to hold "the blue one"


And then said, "all done blue one, hold white one!" Camden was in a white blanket :)


PICTURES!!!!!

Here is a slideshow of the professional pictures taken the day the boys were born! It circulates them pretty quickly...so you might have to watch it twice ;)
And I don't look my best...sorry! :)

Thank you Lacie from Catching Memories Photography for once again capturing some of the best moments in my life!


Slideshow!

Tuesday, February 15, 2011

Evening Update on the Boys

I can't tell you how great it was to see them today. It's so darn hard to leave them their. I'd stay all night if I could.

I went back for another feeding time and it was so nice to walk into the room and see them snuggled up in the same bed. My Mom came with me tonight and she got to hold one while I fed the other....I think she enjoyed herself ;)

The doctor called while I was there and so we got to chat! Here are the updates:

Camden: Doing really well, just have to get him taking his feeds from me and he did SO good this time. He fed for 18 minutes! They will check his bilirubin levels in the morning and we're hoping they stay low. If they do and he continues to feed well he will go home shortly. They are up to between 50-60mls at each feed!! GO BOYS GO! We'll have a weight update in the morning.

Christian: Yesterday was full of "episodes" and lots of craziness with him and his oxygen levels. Today he really only had one issue and it was after feeding time. So that is an improvement. They feel the caffeine worked really really well. She explained to me that in adults it's obvious how caffeine works in our system. We drink a quad latte, can feel the effects and feel it wear off. It moves through our system at a basic rate. With infants it's not exact. It can move through instantly or take a week or more. So, you could have a perfectly healthy baby at 7 days and send them home not knowing if there was caffeine still in them and then they'd crash in the night. So they have you wait the full 10 days to see if after it has moved through the system if they are still OK on their own.
He is on room air, and he's on about a liter which is quite a bit, like a fan blowing in your face. They will slowly decrease this amount and see how he does.
He did amazing today at his feed, much more into it and ate for 20 minutes! He was alert the WHOLE time we were there. He tracks amazingly well with his eyes already.

They are both in clothes too! They are in preemie clothes and they are still huge on them! I'm hoping by the time we take them home things fit a little better!
We found out tonight that the nurse Jack had, our amazing angel of a nurse, had been gone for 4 months with a broken foot but will be back tomorrow for the first time!!! YAY!!! So we're praying we get her! But just to see her will be amazing.

Jack asked to go see them tonight :) We'll take him in again tomorrow for a quick peek.

It was hard putting away their clothes and blankets tonight....unpacking that suitcase. It felt like just yesterday we did this with Jack. I hated going into the NICU and knowing what to do, the routine of checking the temp, changing the diaper and feeding. I hated knowing where to put my milk and where to wash my pump.

SO here is something incredible.....Our NICU is the only thing in Southern Oregon and Northern California and they are actually in the middle of an expansion by 13 beds. It can be so busy that there are numerous times where they have to send babies to Eugene which is 3 hours north. Just TODAY they had to decline a transfer because there was no room. WOW. What if we had taken Camden home only to realize today that his levels were high and he needed treatment. They'd have no room for him. One or both of my boys could have been sent 3 hours away from me. I can't even go there. I can't even process all that would mean. I am SO thankful for our pediatrician and her wisdom. I am so thankful they are here and together!!

Thank you for praying. Thank you for loving us. Keep it up and I KNOW they will be home soon!!

Here is today's picture!
Camden on left, Christian on right and there is a picture of Jack just behind them :)

Good News!

We rested last night. We both fell asleep quickly and other than getting up to pump we slept like a rock. I woke up feeling half human this morning.
Our son Jack was so excited that it was US going in to get him this morning. He asked where all of his grandparents were and when I told him it was Daddy and I that were at home he got the biggest smile on his face!

About 20 minutes after we got up I had Trevor call the NICU for an update. I was in the front room when I heard, "WOO-HOO!!!!" :)

Both Camden and Christian are out from under the photo therapy lights! There levels each dropped by 6 points after only being in there one night! And they BOTH gained weight! AND they are sharing a CRIB!!! YAY :) That made my heart sooo happy!!
So...their pediatrician said I could come and try nursing 3-4 out of 8 sessions! So we showered and quickly headed down to see them!

Christian fed first and was pretty drowsy and slow to eat so we topped him off with a finger feed. Camden was much more interested and seemed to get more down. It's still so hard for me to tell are they getting enough from me? I pump quite a bit, but I'm not sure what they are getting...especially sucking so slowly?
This part is the part I'm trying to figure out. Nursing and finger feeding or NG feeding...it's all so confusing. Hopefully we'll get it figured out soon.

The thing I hate about the NICU is all those beeps and alarms. Every time one went off I freaked. The nurses didn't freak, but I did. Watching all the numbers wondering why they were dropping or spiking. I hate that.

We haven't spoken to the doctor today, so no real update on Christian's status or when Camden might come home.

I have appreciated your comments more than you know. I cried at every one and shared them all with my husband. Some I couldn't even read aloud to him. I don't even know most of you in person, but your words have brought great encouragement, perspective and hope. I wish I could hug all of you right now!!

Thank you for your continued prayers for my boys. They are even more beautiful today than yesterday :)

Monday, February 14, 2011

Boys are here...but then a curve ball.

Four days ago two little men arrived in this world and stole our hearts all over again. I'm not going to go over the whole story now....it'd be like 6 blogs worth :) But I hated the c-section that's for sure. He did amazing and I have no staples to take out....but my body did not like any of it.

So at 7:44am Mr. Camden Rhea entered the world butt first and eyes wide open!! :)  He was 5lbs 7oz and 19 1/2 inches long (which is disputed since we've gotten 3 different measurements but we're going with that) He is gorgeously mostly bald, and what hair he does have is white blonde. He has huge dark blue saucers for eyes and is fair skinned.


One minute later at 7:45am Mr. Christian Grant came into the world screaming and peeing on me :) He was 5lbs 4oz and 18 (again disputed but we're picking this since this is what they first called out) He has almond shaped dark eyes, lots of dark hair and seems to have a more olive tone to his skin.

We were told almost right away that both boys were fine and did not need to go to the NICU. We of course started crying tears of joy and relief. I was stitched up and we all headed back to the room together.

That whole day and the following 3 1/2 days were incredible. Friends and family coming to hold and love on our boys, both boys learning how to breastfeed, no sleep, lots of kisses and snuggles. The pain medication made me so sleepy but my mind wouldn't shut off. So over a 3 day period I was going on a total of about 6 hours of sleep.

Sunday night, the night before we were to head home they took the boys to the NICU to do their car seat tests. We decided to get some rest. Twenty minutes later they came in to tell us that Christian had failed his test immediately. So, yes we were bummed but we knew that car beds were an option if he failed again the next day. Thirty minutes later I was awoken from what felt like the sleep of the dead to the nurse telling me that Christian was being admitted to the NICU.

They decided to monitor him after he failed the test and found that his oxygen levels were dropping into the 80's and sometimes 60's just laying on a bed.
Camden passed his test and was brought back to our room.

I cried a cry so deep that it felt as if all the stitching from the surgery would break away and I would split open. Why? How is this happening? He was FINE at birth and had since had perfect check-ups from the pediatrician and nurses with no sign of any struggle.
Later that morning we met with our pediatrician to discuss what was going on. Christian has periodic breathing, which means his breathing slows down too much and sometimes requires a bit of stimulation to get it back up. It's not true apnea because he doesnt' completely stop breathing. He worsened over the first 12 hours and in addition to a small amount of oxygen being puffed into his nose, he had caffeine treatment which they hope will jump start his respiratory system. This is what we are praying for. He will be in for at least 10 days. He also had a high bilirubin test so he is under photo therapy lights.

Because they were both on the early side, we were finger feeding them in addition to breastfeeding just to get their weights up and nutrition up until they could be sustained on breastfeeding alone. Christian is a great breast feeder, which makes it all the harder to at this point have to go to pumping instead of breastfeeding.

We were thrown another curve ball when later in the day Camden's bilirubin level came back on the high side. We decided instead of waiting for it to worsen, which is most likely would have given his demeanor today and the fact that his is premature, we would admit him now just for photo therapy and get a head start. So Camden was admitted to the NICU this afternoon. Since his issue is just one of jaundice, he will be released when his levels are better and continue to improve.

We left the hospital today with no babies. Two empty car seats and hearts so sad. We know they are being well taken care of, and we know they are not SICK. They are early and they are acting their age. They just have to grow out of this stuff with a little help.

What's frustrating is why did we get 4 days before this? It feels like a cruel joke we were told. They were fine, no NICU and then the day we were to be released they admit them both. Four days of bonding and holding and loving and now they lay there with barely any human contact. It makes me so sad, and I feel like we abandoned them. Are they wondering where we are? Why we aren't holding them anymore? Why they aren't breastfeeding?
I feel upset because I know so many 36 week babies that were fine. No NICU time at all. Some of you are even readers of this blog. Why my kids? Why are my 36 and a half weekers struggling so much when others go home with no issues? It seems so unfair.

It was so good to come home to Jack today. If we didn't have him this would be so much harder. But he was ready for us to be home, and we were too. We'll go down as often as we can and I will continue to pump for them and when they are able we will breastfeed again along with finger feeds.

My prayer is that Camden will come home very soon and that his body will not relapse into a high level. That when he comes home he is home to stay.
My prayer is that Christian only needs this one dose of caffeine and after 10 days will be released with a perfect bill of health and nothing for us to be afraid of.
And that our hearts are healed. We just feel broken and exhausted beyond belief. My eyes are puffier than I've ever seen them and I'm so exhausted. My husband is functioning barely on auto-pilot and along with carrying the burden for his kids he sees me and is carrying my burden as well.

We just need your prayer. We need God to move quickly and that this time would fly by with no more blips in the road and no surprises. That soon we will all be home together.

Snuggle Bugs :)
Christian on the left and Camden on the right

First family shot minus Jack of course :)

First time holding them both...and wow do I look haggard.


Christian in the NICU and you would not believe how much this looks like Jack!

Camden in the NICU

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

Here we go!

Tomorrow. It's tomorrow. In 8 hours I will be driving to the hospital. Leaving a Mommy of one and coming home a Mommy of 3. It's an unreal feeling. With Jack I didn't know when he would arrive, it was a total surprise...this whole planned c-section and knowing when the boys will make their debut is crazy. It leaves me way too much time to worry and be anxious....which is why I've said my verse many a time today

"Don't worry about anything, instead pray about everything. Tell God what you need and thank Him for all He has done." Phil 4:6

We had a wonderful day. We both got up with Jack this morning and had a yummy breakfast. My sweet friend Priscella came over with some dinners to freeze and then proceeded to vacuum our house and clean the kitchen.

After that my sweet friend Helen came over to hang with Jack while Trevor and I went out to a nice lunch at Red Lobster. I had been on my butt for over a week going nowhere, and now that we were less than a day away from the c-section, I was determined to get out and enjoy it! So, this was our Valentines Day date :)

When we got home Trev took Jack to the park while I discovered our washer had broken and was leaking bad. Since we don't have the luxury of time to see about getting it fixed if it can be fixed or messing with it (it's older and we've had some other problems with it) we headed to Sears and purchased a new washer. Now...yes this was bad timing and caused some unneeded stress. BUT the cool part is...God blessed us last week with a check from someone. Totally unexpected and was given to us as an emergency fund. Guess what was used to buy the washer? Yep. God is darn cool like that.

After our trip to Sears my sweetie dropped me off at a salon for a 90 minute pedicure. Let's just say it was amazing. And I have totally awesome bright blue toenails to prove it :) I had to do blue ya know!

We stopped by McDonald's for shake and then headed home. We tucked out little man, soon to be big brother into bed and he prayed this prayer tonight...
"thank you for Mommy, Daddy, Canen (Camden), Christian, Jack.......and Star Wars"

I love that kid.

We just popped open a bottle of sparkling cider and settled in for the night with some good college hoops.

I'm anxious. I'm nervous. I will be lucky to get any sleep. I just want them to be OK. My heart is praying constantly for them.

I cannot wait to meet them. To hold them. I cannot imagine my heart having anymore room...Jack takes it all up. But I know my heart will only grow more to accommodate these little men.

I don't know when I will be updating this. Could be tomorrow...could be days from now. Keep us in your prayers. Thank you so much!

Tuesday, February 8, 2011

36 Weeks 1 Day

36 Weeks 1 Day

SO happy to still be wearing my wedding ring :)

Extremely frivolous and unnecessary.....


 Sometimes it's fun to make an extremely frivolous and unnecessary wish-list. It's fun to "window shop" and dream and it's okay to do so.  These are a few of the things on my "wish-list" that I know will never come to fruition, and they don't need to. It's just plain fun. :)


The BOB Ironman Duallie.
The elite double jogging stroller. I don't even think I could run and push two kids at once...but it'd be nice to try.
But at $400....yeah right.

The Pottery Barn Swivel Glider with Ottoman. Ahhh....it's beautiful.
And at only $650 plus shipping it can be yours!



Doc Martens
$130
Might not seem frivolous to you...unless the most you've paid for a pair of shoes since you had kids was $40 :)


2011 Honda Odyssey
I never ever ever ever thought I'd say I wanted a van. But then this van came along and captured my heart.
I figured since this was a dream list...I'd go ahead and shoot for the Touring Elite.
And at $47,000.....it'll remain on this list :)
Good thing I LOVE our Honda Pilot!!




Doesn't have to be a Canon...this just represents the fact that I'd love a DSLR camera some day. Not to become a pro or anything...just to take good pictures of my kiddos. And have some fun. My sis-in-law is a photographer along with several of my friends....so this would just be for me :)

Petunia Picklebottom Bag made especially for Mom's of multiples. Retails at $198...yeah I have that kind of money for a bag that carries diapers. HA! But isn't it super chic?!?!


This represents getting my hair done. I used to get it cut/colored a lot. Just for fun. Nothing crazy or super high maintenance...but I played around a lot. Now...it's an extra that isn't necessary. So I'd say....this represents going in every 4-6 weeks so I could do whatever I wanted.



Well, that was fun. I'm sure I could spend all day thinking of more. But that's enough for now. What are some of your "frivolous wants" that you're okay with never having?!

Monday, February 7, 2011

36 Weeks

I'm gonna make sure and take a picture every day from here on out just in case it's the last pic! My head isn't in this one because I forgot to smile and so I look grumpy...but I'm not!! So...just the belly :) That's all that really matters right?

Been sitting on my butt all weekend....but I only have 3 days left! When I do get up and take a shower and walk around the house a bit my contractions intensify so I know I'm doing the right thing by laying low. Happy Monday to everyone and a very HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my sweet cousin Peyton Marie (we share a middle name) who feels more like a niece to me than a cousin. I love you sweetie!!



Sunday, February 6, 2011

Randomness

Just for something random.....thanks Becky!





1. If my house was on fire and I could only grab 3 things I would grab... the external hard-drive, our keepsake boxes and my cat. This would mean of course that my boys were already safe outside :)


2. A smell I really like is...Disneyland. Yes...it has a smell. Walking down Main Street it's a mixture of waffle cones, popcorn, churros and hot dogs and it's amazing.


3. Something you might not know about me is... that noisy kid toys don't bother me one bit. I can tune them out...they never ever drive me nuts. Even if all of them are going off at one time.




4. Some of my favorite websites to putter about on are... National Weather Service, Etsy, Craigslist and Facebook.


5. This weekend I will be... holding my new babies.




6. Nothing makes me happier than...when I hear Jack sing 'Jesus Loves Me' with Trevor.


7. A bad habit I have is...leaving my clothes on the floor in our bedroom.

Saturday, February 5, 2011

Last NST and Room Pictures!

Last Non-Stress Test this morning went good! We were there for several hours, and almost had to do an u/s but the boys cooperated :)
The nurse was incredible and I requested her for Thursday. I can't believe it's only 5 days away...well, less than! At this point in 5 days I hope to be snuggling all of my boys!

So many emotions going on right now, it's insane. I'm trying to write it all down in my journal and on here so that I never forget.

We have some great friends who are letting us borrow their son's train table and train set for a few months. Their son just got used to it being there and wasn't playing with it too much, and so they offered to bring it over as something new and exciting just for Jack. So far...score :)

He's all better and so am I...and Trev has still not gotten sick! He's extremely exhausted though and I don't blame him. Yes, I'm carrying two babies, but I'm not about to say that he doesn't deserve to be on bed-rest for a day or two. He's going a million miles a minute taking care of everything and doesn't say a negative word at all. He's pretty much incredible.

We finished the room last night so I will leave you with some pictures and thanks for your continued prayer and support!!





Camden's step-stool

Two cribs! :)

Christian's step-stool...these were made by my friend Helen

I love their room...

Yep...we have airplanes hanging from their ceiling!

Panorama View

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

Fire Drill

So yesterday was interesting....we had our OB appointment in the morning with another non-stress test. It all went well ....as I posted!

Basically from the time we got home I started contracting pretty regularly. It went from uncomfortable to quite painful. Along with the contractions I had major low back pain that caused me to throw up it was so bad. This is what I had when I was in labor with Jack. I called my nurse a couple times and she said to keep an eye on things, do the whole "lie down, drink a gallon of water and take Tylenol" drill and then if it worsens to go to the hospital.

So...it got worse. My sweetie came home and loaded the car just in case and my Mom came over to watch Jack. We headed to the hospital while I was sobbing. The day before had been the worst day ever with Jack and the thought that THAT was my last full day with him made me cry. I was scared for these babies, and just not ready. But I had picked my new Siesta Scripture Memory Verse that morning and it happened to be....

"Don't worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need and thank him for all he has done" Philippians 4:6 NLT

So...I did just that.

We checked in and they hooked me up to all the fun monitors. I was contracting every 4-6 minutes and several of them were off the chart. My back was killing me. I kept drinking water and praying. She checked my cervix and the contractions were not causing me to dilate! YAY. So....I was monitored for a few more hours, changing positions, drinking water and praying. The doctor on call said that if I wasn't dilating and felt comfortable with that I could go home. The contractions slowed immensely and my back pain disappeared. She checked me one last time and no more dilation! Praise the LORD!

So....after 4 hours we headed home. What a relief. I know that God has His hand on me and my babies, I fully believe that they will be fine whenever they are born...whether they do have to go to the NICU or not. But I can't tell you how happy I was to come home, kiss my sleeping Jack's face and know that we would not be having the babies that night.

So...now I'm confined to my chair. My butt hurts from sitting, but I know this is what will keep them in longer. My Mom has been incredible, my husband...amazing. My friends....outstanding. I wish there were a proper way to thank them all. I have no words.

So...we did the fire drill. We passed. Now we pray they stay in there until the 10th. We pray and trust.

Pray for my sweetie. He's being full time Mom, Dad, housekeeper and Worship Pastor. He's exhausted and I don't blame him. He was supposed to go on one last "guy's night" last night...get out of the house and hang with his buddies....obviously that didn't happen.

Pray for Jack. He can tell something is up and he has been quite difficult. The kid is usually the easiest 2 year old I know. But the last several days have been trying for us as parents. He is STILL sick. That combined with the "mood" in the house, I know is a big factor. But it doesn't make things easier on us.

Pray for my babies. Pray they stay healthy and keep gaining weight and that their lungs are developed and that they STAY PUT!

Pray for me. I have so many stinking emotions going on right now I don't know what to do with them. I feel scared, excited, helpless, tired, sore, happy, thankful, frustrated etc.

We can't thank you enough for your prayers. We feel them and I know for a fact that's why I'm home today and still pregnant. So thank you.

Tuesday, February 1, 2011

Last OB appointment!

Today was our last OB appointment for these boys! I can't even believe it. His nurse gave us a big huge hug and said she'd be praying for us. I can't tell you how incredible it has been to have a Bible believing, God-fearing Christian man as my OB and the same goes for his nurse. It's just been wonderful!

We did another non-stress test and this time it was Christian who wouldn't cooperate...he slept the whole time. So, he wheeled in the u/s and after several minutes we were able to watch him breathe. So...whew, that was good! I am definitely contracting and we were able to watch it on the monitor. They aren't painful or super regular, but I can feel them for sure.

I'm measuring 40 weeks, so no real change over the last 3 weeks. I'm dilated to a 3 1/2, so not much more. I thought maybe they had dropped based on that picture I just posted, but nope! They are still at station -2! No weight gain :)

He said I need to take it really, really, really, really, really really easy. So...I am. I'm basically not going anywhere or doing anything. I really want to make it 9 more days, so I'm going to be a hermit.

On Saturday we go to the hospital for our last non-stress test. He didn't want to wait until Tuesday since the surgery is just 2 days later. So, we'll do that and if all is good then I go home, if they are at all concerned then we'll do the surgery right then and there.

Anyways.....things look good so thank you for your prayers! I really want to make it to the 10th. Really really really!

Jack is still stick, yesterday was the worst day I can remember. Not only did he not sleep the night before, but he was like a completely different child yesterday. Just awful. Today has been better thank the Lord! Praying his sickness goes away, that mine clears out and that Trevor continues to stay healthy!