So, I'm finally writing about our getaway to Brookings! I have accepted that yes, we are home, and I have to move past 'vacation mode'!
I can't begin to say how wonderful our trip was! Minus the carsickness that Jack had on the way up, and the stench of vomit lasting until we were able to fully wash the car seat cover.....the trip was perfect! :)
The whole reason behind the trip was to escape. To get some good healing time away together. When something tragic happens in your life, you rarely get to take the time needed to heal and rest. We have a wonderful church family and they saw to it that we would, indeed, get some time away. We feel so incredibly blessed and are so thankful that they care so much about us!
I knew that going to the coast wouldn't "fix" everything and that there wasn't going to be some big moment of, "ah-ha! I feel so much more emotionally healed!" But I did know that God knew why we were going and that He'd meet us there. And He did. Not in some big dramatic way, but when we were driving home I just could feel that the Lord had been with us and ministered to both of our hearts.
We were able to just sit. talk. sleep. relax. pray. read....and look out our window over the amazing ocean. It was bliss.
I have been stuck in 2009. I have not really realized that we are in 2010... I just haven't grasped it. Coming home from the coast, I feel ready to face this New Year. To not look back and wonder, but to step forward knowing that "all He has in store for me is good." I am excited about what this year holds, and not just the fun trips planned and the milestones we'll reach (our 7 year anniversary, Jack turning 2!) But for what I believe God is going to be doing in me!! You can't walk through what I walked through and be the same. And for that...I am excited. I'm not the same person, and I can't wait to see what God does with me!!
So...it's a little late in coming, but Happy New Year to you all and I trust God has big things in store for you as well!
"Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us, to him be glory in the church and in Christ Jesus throughout all generations, for ever and ever! Amen" Ephesians 3:20-21